Lordie, lordie I have been busy. Between booking movers/cleaners for my move, grad school starting, work, and personal life… I’m beat. Luckily I’ve been able to stick to my new eating lifestyle pretty well and have found myself under 150 lbs. a few days this week. I’m hoping I can stay here. I REALLY need to start incorporating more exercise/activity for my body in life, but I need to get moved and settled before I can take on much more.
Things have been a bit tough emotionally lately. With so much changing, it’s hard to stay positive as I watch my previous life fade away and come to an end. I don’t see/talk to my best friend as much anymore and it’s been really, really hard. I know these changes are for the better and will make me a better person… it’s just so hard to move on from certain things. I’m trying to stay focused on the things I need to do… pack, clean, work, class, etc. This image is on my desktop to remind myself to focus on the present and not worry so much about the past/future.
I haven’t been as diligent with blogging as I should be. Maybe I’ll try hard. 🙂 Maybe.
This has been a whirlwind of a week. I’m winding down my housing search with 2 more shared viewings today. I was offered an awesome room in Ballston, but the price is a little high. I really like it and the roommates, so I’m sure I’ll pick it, but I have to finish my due diligence today.
My nose is still pretty sore. If I touch it very roughly at all, like just to scratch and itch, it gets sore. I snagged my nose on my shirt as I was taking it off the other day and man… my nose was sore the rest of the day. I read that the first 2 weeks are when it’s the most fragile, so I’m just really hoping I haven’t messed it up.
I’m exhausted. I went to Winchester for work on Thursday meaning a very early start to the day. That night, very late, I Â had a softball game to manage (not play yet). It was late and was even later once I actually got to sleep. I still feel like I’m dragging.
Grad school starts very, very soon. I’m not really sure what to expect, but I’m excited. Looking forward to something to focus on.
I’m listening into a corporate call for a company that I promote and sell their line of supplements. I’m hearing the stories of how these products and the opportunity for wealth have CHANGED people’s lives at such an extreme level that I cannot help but be moved. Every time I hear these stories, I tear up. Â It’s so powerful, motivating, and uplifting!
I know I can talk and post a lot about these products and my X-life… and there’s a reason for that. Only 4-5 years ago, I weighed ALMOST 200 lbs. I had gotten to 198. YEARS before this happened I had told myself I would never let myself get over 200. I had basically set a goal to reach that point and sure enough, I succeeded. I stopped drinking soda. Up until this point, I would sit in front of the computer or TV all evening after work/class and play videos games while sucking down artificially sweetened Coke Zero or Diet DP up to 4 cans in 4-5 hours. I lost weight just cutting this out and drinking water instead, but only until a point. I continued doing different things throughout the next 4 years, losing weight here and there and getting to 161 lbs. The weight loss was slow and exercise intermittent throughout those years and, I’ll admit, I lost some of the weight in REALLY REALLY unhealthy ways.
My sister started talking to me about a line of supplements she was taking and trying to get me to try it. I refused often and loudly. She kept pushing. I eventually said, “You have to stop asking me about this.” And she said she would… but she didn’t. I am SO thankful she didn’t. My sister likely saved my life. I was living a VERY unhealthy lifestyle that, while I wasn’t gaining weight, I was accumulating health issues like a teenager accumulates pimples. I also struggled with mood swings, anxiety, and other mental health issues that were best maintained while on prescription medications.
Thanks to my sister and these X-products, I’ve completely changed the life I was living. I no longer stay in bed to avoid living my life. My IBS and endometriosis pain SIGNIFICANTLY decrease while using these products and living this lifestyle. I am no longer taking ANY prescription medications for mental health related issues. It’s been a LIFE CHANGER.
Could a simple diet change have made a difference? Probably, but these products made it SO easy to transition and get my life back on track. I lost 14.5″ and 13 lbs. in 8 weeks and have kept it off! Next Monday I’m getting BACK on track (after the broken nose) with the supplements and a proper diet! I have 8 lbs to go and I CANNOT WAIT to get there.
Well, I kind of dropped the ball on blogging the past week… so, here’s a quick update on the past week!
Day 15 – I ran out of pain pills and this was by far the worst pain day since the surgery on Monday. I basically slept all day until my “favorite” was able to being me some Ibuprofen and Tylenol to start rotating through. Not much happened this day besides sleeping, eating, and watching TV. Maybe a few emails answered, but that’s all for work.
Day 16 – Luckily, my Thursday softball team’s game was rained out. I say luckily because I wasn’t able to go even watch so this way I don’t miss the game. I worked this day (from home like always) and rested in the evening.
Day 17 – Friday was a nice day. My nose was feeling significantly better, so much so that I couldn’t wait to get out of the house. I accompanied my “favorite” out to Oakton, VA to drop something at his boss’ house. We stopped at this cute little Italian place and had some AMAZING wood-fire grilled pizza! And appetizers, and dessert, and everything I shouldn’t eat. 🙂 Comfort food helps my nose. I Swear!
Day 18 – Saturday morning I checked out a room in a house in Ballston as my lease expires 9/11 and I want to move. I really, REALLY liked it. Spent the rest of the day at my place, lounging and resting with my “favorite”. Early evening we went to his house to hang out with a couple friends, but I didn’t stay long and came home to bed.
Day 19 – Sunday I met my friend, Rachel, for lunch at this great place called Seasons 52. I went all out with a pre-meal drink, entree, and a small shot of Carrot Cake with a latte. Again… my nose deserved some comfort food and it was the last day of having my cast on. She went with me to look at a condo for rent, then we parted ways. I kept on looking at 3 more rentals throughout the day before spending some time with my “favorite” and coming home.
Day 20 – FINALLY! My nose cast came off! Â Then I bought donuts because, well, my nose deserved them. I stopped by my “favorite”s house to share some with him before returning home to work. In the evening, I ventured out to watch my Monday night softball team play as I still cannot. I stopped by my “favorite”s house afterwards for a short bit before returning home to rest.
Day 21 – Busy day! Worked all day then viewed 2 places for rent, one with a roommate and one without. Neither of them seemed to be a great fit, so I was looking forward to the rest of the appointments throughout the week. I had dinner with my friend, Peter, then came home to rest and sleep!
Day 22 – THAT BRINGS US TO TODAY. Ugh. Blogging every is WAY easier than blogging once a week. Lordie. I think I remembered everything I did this past week. I think. Today I’m working then checking out a couple more rentals followed by a couple X-Life calls. Busy day again, but I’m loving it. I was getting WAY tired of being laid out. Glad to be active again, even if not 100%
*wipes forehead* I told myself I would maintain this blog for a YEAR. I’m not a huge fan of setting goals and dropping them so… we keep trucking along.
My mood has significantly increased since being able to get off the couch and not hurting so bad. Oh, and I started an account on OK Cupid. Oy. Dating sucks but hey… sometimes you just gotta do it!
That’s enough for today, THANK GOODNESS. Live long and prosper!
I don’t know if I ever want to get married again. When I think about marriage, I don’t feel positive things and thus have no desire to do so; however, as I sit in my house healing from surgery, I’m reminded how much easier life would be with a committed partner. Someone who cared so strongly about me and loved me so much so that they can’t stop themselves from making me a priority. Someone who comes to my side even when I say I’m fine, don’t come. Â Someone to lean on when times are hard to take some of my burden to help me get through a little easier. Someone who listens and is attentive enough to notice when a little more care may be needed in dealing with me at any particular moment.
Is this a pipe dream? I’m not a simple woman. I need a lot of attention and are what people may call “needy” and “high maintenance”. I’ve been this way my whole life, middle child!, and don’t really see it changing. I’m wondering if maybe I’m just a little too much for one person to handle. Meh, just musing today. Sitting around not doing anything and being stuck inside leads to time just thinking and that’s not generally a good idea for me. I like to stay busy doing things and living life, but I’m stuck here with a broken face trying to mend.
I have a lover. I adore him. We’ve been in a non-exclusive relationship for over 2 years. He’s not capable of supporting me and being the man I need/want. It’s hard and has been hard the past few weeks. I don’t like talking about him much here on this public forum for everyone to see, but it’s relevant to this post. Someday I’ll have to move on from him to give myself the chance to find someone a bit more compatible. I have very deep feelings for this man and it’s so sad that it just isn’t the right fit.
Once my nose has healed and I can be a bit more active, I need to get back to focusing on my life, career, health, fitness, and everything. This will help. For now, I eat ice cream!
Nose surgery. Bad food. Good meds. Running out of shows in my queue. Marathoning “American Horror Story”, breaking with “Mistresses”. Missing playoff softball game. Supplements again, YES!!!
The past few days have been hard. My face doesn’t feel that great still, of course, and as of Friday I’m having surgery tomorrow to get my nose reset. I’m going into another week of not being able to do much and having to stay inside. I live alone, so it tends to get REAL lonely. This has put me in a funk, but I’m looking forward to my nose being healed and being able to get back to normal life.
Friday was a whirlwind. In the morning, I looked at a few rental places as I’ve started my housing search. I’m a little stressed about this given I need to be out of here by 9/10. I got a call while looking at rentals that an ENT doctor had an opening for me that afternoon. I had to drive to Reston then to Fairfax after my realtor session to get my nose looked at. This concluded with the scheduling of surgery. Once I got home, I was so exhausted that I worked for a bit then spent the rest of the day/night on the couch. Most of my friends were doing things I didn’t feel up for, so I stayed in, did some laundry, stated a new show (“America Horror Story”), and laid low.
Saturday I got up mid-morning and did the usual TV, laptop, chores thing before heading to my “favorite’s” house to hang out. Wound up taking a nap then going to eat BBQ with him and his roommates. It was yummy and I was so full/tired that I wound up going home shortly after dinner. Another friend of ours stopped by to show us her motorcycle and I’m thinking, someday, I may have to get one. Everything was great… then it wasn’t. Late night occurrences led to very unfortunate situation with my “favorite” which has made things between us not so gravy ever since.
Surgery means no supplements. I haven’t been eating well either, which is undoubtedly contributing to my mood. I’m going to get right back on it once this nose debacle has been dealt with.
Today, I did the usual weekend morning TV, laptop, and chores routine after sleeping in very late. I had brunch with my “favorite” and a friend in DC, but after a few mimosas, I couldn’t wait to leave, go lay down, snuggle, and relax. Things weren’t very relaxing at my “favorite’s” place due to the tension between us from the night before, so I decided to come home and spend some time alone… which we all know I LOVE SO MUCH. SARCASM. He’s coming over tonight at some point to stay over and take me to the hospital for surgery in the morning. There’s that.
All in all, the weekend could’ve been worse and most definitely could’ve been better. I blame my injury for most things, but in the end, no blame is to be had and moving on is all that I can do.
Yeah. It hurts. Not as bad as I figured it would. It’s interesting how when I look at this picture of my face, it doesn’t look that bad. I wonder if I saw this picture, but it was someone else, if I would think the same thing. Most people who have seen this picture have said it looks really rough. It was. That ball was hard, was hit hard, and hit me right in the face.
I’m feeling a lot of things today. Stupidity for putting myself at 3rd in the first place simply because someone adamantly suggested it. I knew better, but I did it anyway. Thankfulness for the people at the game who jumped to my side and helped take care of me. Luck as had I not been wearing sunglass or had my head been turned slightly a different way, things could have been much worse. Empathy for the poor guy who hit the ball. A teammate told me the guy was visibly upset and his father told me today he had to console him because he was very very upset. And many others I’m not going to go into.
SILVER LINING!!! I’m almost caught up on Bachelorette. I was starting to be told to go rest every time I responded to work emails, so I figured they can’t ALL be wrong. After this, I catch up on Rookie Blue. Well, my favorite may come over tonight though, so maybe I’ll be watching something we both like. We’ll see. Oh and they gave me Percocet.
I’m alive. I’m recovering. I’m medicated. Good day. Good day.
It took a whole whopping 7 days to hit a bad mood. Womp womp. This mood is acerbated by the fact that I have not been very financially smart over the last few months and now it’s biting me in the ass. There seems to be so much to focus on that I can’t understand how some people have it all together. You have to think about finances, retirement, health, fitness, beauty, work, friends, family, etc. I start to focus on one and slip in the others. Maybe if I could afford to pay people to focus on things for me… alas, I cannot. Â
Money can’t buy happiness, you say? I say you’re ridiculous, shut up, and sit down.
Oh, I should mention I got hit in the face with a softball tonight. Was playing 3rd (don’t ask why), hard hit took a bad bounce right into my face. Broken nose. Womp Womp. Here’s a pic and I imagine it will get worse before it gets better:
Today my custom built desktop decided to have a fit. I turned her on and she went into a strange disk recovery screen for Windows 8. After quite a while, she did some weird black screen, white text super scrolling speed demon shit then proceeded to boot Windows 7… which I have not used on this machine since 2013. UGH. Why is she doing this?! Now, I’ve got to try to find time to fix her, but it’s going to have to wait. I love to listen to music on her because she has the best speakers in the house. Ugh. #firstworldproblems
It was a hot one out today. Well, I haven’t been outside since 7:30AM, but it was hot then and weather.com  is saying it’s 94 degrees out. I was supposed to play softball, but I decided to sit out as I’m still sunburned and generally just drained from this weekend’s superb activities.
Started a new 8 day today! Feeling a little sluggish and still haven’t met my health and fitness goals, so I’m getting back on that horse and riding it for 8 full days to get back in shape. My birthday weekend was fun, but MAN it did a number on my progress. 🙂
Wound up going to see “Ant-Man” with some friends! It was good!
